People always say you need to forgive and forget. It's good advice, but not very practically. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. But, without forgiveness, old scores never settle, and old wounds never heal. But, the most we can all hope for, is that someday, we'll all be lucky enough to forget. Life is ironic-- you learn humility by being humiliated, and you learn honesty by being cheated. That's life. It's not supposed to make sense. Life is not fair, so GET USED TO IT! If you mess up, it's only your fault, so learn from your mistakes. Give people more than they expect, become the most positive person you can be, be forgiving of yourself and others, and commit yourself to constant improvement. The point is, life doesn't make sense. Period. Why do we hold grudges? Holding anger is a poison-- it eats you from inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us... but hatred is a curved blade-- and the harm we do, we do to ourselves. The minute you settle for less that what you deserve, you get even less than you settled for. I really can't deny it-- I am who I am. I'm pretty normal. I'm not the smooth type of girl. I run into things. I trip, I say stupid things, and I don't really have it all together. But, I know, that's part of life. That's part of growing up. Do what you feel in your heart is right, for you'll be criticized anyway-- your danged if you do, and your danged if you don't. Misery is an old friend to life. Sometimes, it tricks you into thinking that it's always going to be there-- that you can't be happy. But, YOU CAN. You can, and you will walk away from the pain life brings. As Nicole Richie says: you just have to go with what you want, and if it doesn't want you back, then so be it-- it doesn't deserve you anyways. =] So, keep on smiling, because no one said this ride called life, would be easy. Things can be so blurry and unclear. Days continue to go by, and I find myself still sitting here. Until now, I never understood what "life is hard" really meant. I know now, that life is full of struggles, tears, and pain. You will go through hardships more than once, and you can't out-run tough times, because life always finds a way of making more. Life isn't always laughs and look-ups, and now I know that there is always room to fall, and there is always room for change. Change to me is something that I fear. It's knowing that one chapter of your life story is over- That you have to start a brand new page. That's exactly where I have been. I've been writing the same words, and listening to the same advice over and over again. I know this chapter by heart. I can tell you everything about it- how it ends, and how it starts. I always thought that I would be the strong one. The one who wouldn't be who I am today. I thought I had this life thing down. I didn't think I needed help, and I didn't need to cry out to a soul. Now I know that help, helps me. I want that day to come when everything just seems so right- when it all just falls together. When I can look back on today and say: "Wow, look at where I've been, and look at everything that I went through to become the person that I am today." I sit here now and I don't understand why I am going through so many trials. I don't know what is on the other side of this, but I do know that I have to find it- I have to find the reason. Another chapter can't begin until I let this one end. just when I reach a point of contentment things change. What I have begun to see, is that every person, situation, and event, are all part of his plan, and that helps mold me into the person that God has created me to be. God knows who I am, he knows where I've been, what I am capable of, and where I will go. Whatever happens in my life, even if I don't see it that way at first, IS A BLESSING- one more step leading me towards my destination- the woman that God wants me to be.<3aj
