About Me

Most of the time I'm straight up, other times I'm a silly, laid back, pretty chill person. I love learning more and more about life. My life is EXCITING!! and I'm discovering how to balance everything in it out.I love it when people give me advice. Usually I can find out what a person is all about in the first couple minutes I meet them. I would never change my past for anyone and I would never regret it. Things happen for a reason! I'm going to be a successful person and always overcome any problems or challenges that come my way. I'm tired of hiding and being scared to take a risk. I'm going to take my chances and have some funn! The only times i write blogs,is eighter i was going threw something. Or just need to get something outt!!

Friday, November 13, 2009

ANSWERING QUESTIONS/UPDATE


This for Kelly, jasmine,Alexis also viewers i won't be on probably for all of December and Jan I will try. :)
And also Thomas I'm leaving for Iraq on ‎November 20Th Can't wait!! :) Were staying there for at least 2 the 3 months, i had an incredible weekend in NYC!! Now... time to refocus on a crazy month ahead! Virgin Islands, Iraq, Chi-Town, then back to Tampa than will get a new group of girls to join, unfortunately we get no break...LET'S GO!!!! But the #1 person im going to miss, is emma she's still filming that beauty &geek australia. Thanks to people voting, my girl is going nowhere anytime soon You bring that money home :)
(Will not be home for a few months Thomas, I'll have my laptop with me so if they let me use it loll but hopefully you'll be home in a couple months)

And you Kelly asked
Do you consider yourself as COLD HEARTED type at times? I was wondering if you could blog about that. To answer my question, because me i consider my self cold hearted. Just wondering if you feel the same way.



Well I don't wear my heart on my sleeve.In fact, I don't really wear my heart at all.The only thing I seem to wear anymore is my head. My heart has become so jaded that I will literally run from something good for me, just so I don't have to ever feel anything that might one day break me again. I've become so distant that I don't even know how I got this far out here. I'm a pro at the game. You may think your one step ahead of me, but I've just learned to wear darker shades. I have a tendency for coming on strong and then dipping out right when I feel you getting attached. How do I stop this? Is this just me now? Or will I one day find someone who plays long enough to call my bluff? Will I one day let someone in? My Grandfather, the true non believer in chivalry, used to tell me; "People who cheat or play the game are really good at what they do, so don't try to catch them. Just know, that what happens in the dark, will eventually show up in the light." One of the wisest things I was ever told. Because of this quote, I've always kept my mouth shut and let things fall out on their own. So now, I don't hide anything. I'm right out in the open and find myself being so honest that it comes off mean or insensitive. If I don't like you, you'll know right away (And you hardly hear me say "Yo i really can't stand this Peron" Or "dude get the f out my face" I'm not a negative person, you really have to do something bad to see that side of me and believe me its not pretty). There's no sugar-coating. But in the end, I want to learn how to use my heart again. I don't want past mistakes and heartache to predict my future. I'm very sweet and caring person to friends and family, but when it comes to relationships I feel like a cold hearted Bitch. Hope that answer's your question Kelly :)

As for jasmine, i know you sent this like awhile ago but i just been so busy. The only times i get on this is if eighter I'm near my laptop, or just need to get a hold of someone (Thomas brother in law)

Hey i have a question i'm curious. Why people have kids when they know their partners are cheaters than wanna split up? can u explain that to me?
I ask my self that all of the time, and tbh I'm still trying to figure that out myself and i really didn't want to answer this because it might backfire on me LMFAOO. Because what if i say something, and get involve with someone,that's a cheater and we have kids (SCARY!!) i mean i can get a better man, but i don't want to have a child and be with another man. That's just weird to me, i've seen a few families in that situation and i pray i never have to deal with that. Then when the couple separates, the only time the other will see their kids would probably be on weekends, see how crazy that is i want my kids to be with their father at all times not when judge says when i or he suppose to see them. But i have a few friends that are in the same situation, one of my friends said this to me "All men are cheaters and make sure to spend all their money ! :) k that is all." That's not true, I mean alot of girls do that, spend their partners money but don't use them cheating as an excuse though. Okay lets say you spent all of his money than what? You think he'll go back to you? Or he'll realize how much he really loved you? Nahhh it doesn't work like that baby :) I mean some guys will try to do that, use you until they get back on their feet then ditch you AGAIN. You forgive them once if you really care and love them, you go back the sec time and it happens again? You leave! You don't stick around thinking eventually he/she will change. But than again some people really do change, but if its true love? believe me they will find their way back into your life. Hope that answer's your question, but just know i myself is still trying to figure that out.:)

Once a cheater, always a cheater. Agree? - Alexis

If you was to ask me that like two years ago,i would say agree but right now I'm in the middle. All behaviours are subject to change. When someone wants to change their behaviour's they should not be discouraged by negative thinking people.You can change your negative thinking too, that is also a behaviour, therefore you can change it. To say that a cheater is not capable of being faithful may be quite unfair. My sister onced said this to me, she was refereeing to someone else though she said."Do it to me once,shame on you,do it to me twice, shame on me.You definitely can forgive the cheater.But, that doesn't mean you have to stick around, and wait to have it happen again"
Think that's enough of answering questions for now. And yes i do try to read all comments and approve them, there's so much to approve from so i won't allow comments for this blog. (Thank you guys for checking in, much love and respect to you all. )