I 've always seen things other people didn't, felt things, questioned things. But there is a point where it just goes to far. where you begin to think so much, you forget how to feel. how to live. how to TRUST - yourself, others, life. Before i talk, i think of how it could be misunderstood. when others speak, i wonder what they really mean. I read between the lines when there is nothing between the lines. it becomes hard for me to take things at face value. I often think about the purpose of life. It is not that I am suicidal, but I find myself asking the same question.What is the purpose of living? I do not mean career wise or love wise, I mean overall. Like why do we have to love and suffer and be sad and happy. Why is it that while I am calm and relaxed, others typing away my troubles while others are forced to flee and die? What makes some us suffer and others rejoice? Where is fairness and justice? Am I the only one to notice? War being a mask of pride, honor, and protection, when it only serves as a puppet for government! It isn't just these thoughts, there are others which I do not wish to relate. I want to be wrong, I want to find my purpose and stop thinking so much. I am too young for these thoughts, I just want to find some sort of peace in myself.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
I think too Much...
I 've always seen things other people didn't, felt things, questioned things. But there is a point where it just goes to far. where you begin to think so much, you forget how to feel. how to live. how to TRUST - yourself, others, life. Before i talk, i think of how it could be misunderstood. when others speak, i wonder what they really mean. I read between the lines when there is nothing between the lines. it becomes hard for me to take things at face value. I often think about the purpose of life. It is not that I am suicidal, but I find myself asking the same question.What is the purpose of living? I do not mean career wise or love wise, I mean overall. Like why do we have to love and suffer and be sad and happy. Why is it that while I am calm and relaxed, others typing away my troubles while others are forced to flee and die? What makes some us suffer and others rejoice? Where is fairness and justice? Am I the only one to notice? War being a mask of pride, honor, and protection, when it only serves as a puppet for government! It isn't just these thoughts, there are others which I do not wish to relate. I want to be wrong, I want to find my purpose and stop thinking so much. I am too young for these thoughts, I just want to find some sort of peace in myself.
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I think everyone has had these thoughts at one time or another.
I know I have..........
I still do sometimes and then I have to remind myself that I can do things to change the world around me in small ways but for the big part of it I am not in control.
Things will happen that I cannot prevent so with that realization I have to accept that I can only do what I can within my own realm and world and the rest is left up to someone or something higher then myself.
All I can do with the pain and agony that I feel for others suffering at that point is have compassion for them and pray and hope for better things.
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