For mike, i didn't forget about you;) I have this habit of always reflecting on life, you will find me staring at a wall not blink for once that's how focus i get at times. I start having flash back's of things, and if its bad i would get mad at myself and start thinking "What did i say to he/she that was so wrong?" Or what could i have told he/she to make the situation better. But in the end, you can't go back in the past and change your past. Which is why i get so frustrated and bothered, there's nothing i can do about the situation so why the hell do i keep remind myself of it? I love my life, love my past but your always going to have those moments with someones and Whenever I think about something that happened, I do this weird thing to stop. I shake my head or start moving any part of my body real fast so I don't have to think about it anymore. And it actually works. The memory doesn't come back unless I think about it again.Thinking about where you've been and all you've experienced can be draining, especially when you think about the bad parts. Sometimes I wish I could forget everything as it happens, but then I suppose that would come with it's own set of issues, now wouldn't it?I hate when my people/friends who always come up to me saying "OMG DO YOU REMEMBER THIS" It's like yes but I don't want to think of it as it just a memory in my mind that will never be re-lived so it upsets me at times so I think of the future all the time. Its like you share something so special with that person, and there's always something or someone that will get in the way. You get so close to that person, and you are now willing to open up to them then few months later they want to leave. They got something or someone waiting for them back in the city, they forget all about you its like please go never come back. Why did i ever bother? (Its happened to me once, but im giving a different example). I'm a very passionate women, and i take everyone seriously and i expect the same in return, I've lost so many people from my past but the thing is most of them are still alive but I've made no contact with them, it would hurt me too much. People from my past think they can just walk back in on my life again after everything they've just put me through. I've turned out a stronger person in the end though. I always had a special inspiring man i always went to for advice, my grandfather its like everything i was going threw, he was always there. If i was going threw something bad, he always found a way to cheer me up and i would always forget about the in tire situation and ask my self why was i mad in the first place? it wasn't even that serious. Gosh i miss that man, you are truly missed!! :)